Pictures!
The Band
Jumana And I
Team Singapore!
My Best Friend
4E!
Thats all for now!
^_^
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I must be really really really really really really really dumb.
Omg. I just realised how to upload pics on my blog.
T-T Great job, Hannah,
Great job. lol
Today im just, really really tired.
Or maybe im just moody..
Bu ti dont really know why.
Tired, understandable cos today’s not the most energetic of days, plus pe plus training.
Tiring.
Very tiring.
Brain’s getting kind of tired of studying.
And half of me feels like giving up on studying since im already in a JC.
BUt no.
I have to do well.
I want to do well.
I need to prove myself with my results.
Sigh..
I must constantly remind myself, that im different.
My focus is different from many others.
I am concentrating on developing a talent God gave me.
I am training.
I spend 2 afternoons training, and training has become increasingly tiring.
So tiring i sometimes have a serious lack of energy by the time i reach home.
I just wanna lie down and rest and do something less brain challenging.
Or maybe its the lack of rest.
I dont know.
BUt im wearing out a little.
I guess its times like this that we learn to trust God.
I admit, i feel like im drifting away from God.
Sometimes i feel a little senseless.
But i know i have to keep going on.
I need to get back close to God, because, i need to be that spiritual guidance for my cell, for my sbs, and for the ppl who look to me for godly advice. God has placed me in such a position, to impact the lives of many, and i cant afford to let it pass just like that. I need to get back on track.
Help.
Sigh.
anyway.
Decided to give myself a brain break today.
So did a little reserch on the BeiJing Olympics.
I really wanna catch the throwing events.
And i caught this on the net:
Athletics is, in many ways, the embodiment of the Olympic motto, “Citius, Altius, Fortius”, meaning faster, higher, stronger.
Athletics (or track and field) is about running faster, jumping higher and throwing further than your competitors. The ancient Games at Olympia began simply with foot races, only occasionally complicated by dressing the runners in infantry armour or making them carry soldiers’ shields. Today, athletics remains one of the most popular Olympic sports. From the 100m dash to the 42.195km marathon, from the hammer throw to the high jump, it contains many of the Olympic Games’ blue-ribbon events and many of the highest-profile competitors.
The Athletics events start on 15 August.
OH CRAP!
PRELIMS START.
plus….
ASEAN… MAN…
HaHA
and.
OH DANG MAN!
WTNUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
QUALIFYING MARK FOR WOMEN’S SHOT PUTT FOR OLYMPICS IS…
17.20m…
Wtnut man…
seriously..
All those monsters…
Woah………….
Thats scary man…
And discus
59?!?!?!
WHAT THE NUTTTTTTT
ALL THOSE INSANE PPL OUT THERE.
OMGOODNESS…
I feel so amature and unskilled compared to that man..
Woah…
lol.
And i just check Singapore Olympics web for info on youth olympics.
BAI TUO LA.
WALAO.
14-18year olds CAN
PLS LA
18 CAN LA
I CAN SO GO YOUTH OLYMPICS CAN.
Walao eh.
Alright alright
Keep the head in the game.
Look forward for the ultimate goal- YOUTH OLYMPICS.
I dont care already.
Im gonna train my guts out if i have to.
My Thighs ache like mad,
my stomach aches like mad,
but if it is signs of improvement, then i willingly put up with it, and galdly ask for more.
I want this.
God, i want this.
Haha.
And im gonna work for it.
Unfortunately, it seems kinda more important then my studies. Hehe. 
Thats not very good..
But… Ah well..
Its relaly wahat i want la.
Ah well.
YOUTH OLYMPICS!!!!
Citius, Altius, Fortius!
http://www.singapore2010.sg/
Monday, July 28, 2008
Interesting.
Hi.
Today’s the start of a new week.
Yay.
Today’s the start of a new week.
Yay.
Today was quite an interesting day. 
2hrs of math went by rather quickly today.
Joseph kept provoking me. >.< ass. lol
Chinese was quite interesting cos we finished watcihng a show called Dui Bu Qi Lao Shi.
Quite a sad show, but very meaningful.
Recess, went to collect my phone from GO.
Had recess. lol
English, was quite interesting.
Though i think i must be very scary when im trying desperately to get point i completely believe is right across, because i scare benita everytime i try correcting her very very very wierd tihnking. hmm.
Chem,
got chased out of the classroom for not doing one question in the June Paper because i honestly didnt hear that we had to do all 4 questions in section B. So ah well.
It was tremendously good bonding time with the girls, though they kept teasing me about david, which had absolutely no relevence to anything. Seriously. lol.
Mrs Tan changed my place in class.
So im no longer sitting beside David, but am now sitting beside Samuel, which contrary to popular belief, is a very nice and whacky guy. haha. I think im gonna have a rather interestingly fun time in chem + my chem improving with an expert right beside me. 
AM WISELY NOT GONNA COMMENT ON MY POSITION CHANGE with relevence to david, rather.
Suspect some pesky gals may come look see look see what i write hor. lol
Am not commenting.
Bleah.
>.<
Lifeskills,
was quite interesting cos we did a presentation on our Service Learning. My group, rather. Haha. The 2nd Nepal group since the few of us were like nowhere near existance with the ‘GG gang’. So. Ah well.
After school.
SS/GEOG extra class- Boring.
Training- FUN + Tiring.
Managed to do a good Max today of 70kg bench, but nearly died, and thank goodness haoyi and i shared the same mindset- No way i can complete a pb of 75kg today. Hehe. I do 65kg until i wanna die already, 75kg.. siao. lol
Did some great cleans today, and watching Jing was horribly fun, though i got the horrible job of teaching/correcting his technique. Haha.
And did i mention Jing went NUTS today? Bruce lee… omg.. Go look in the mirror la jing.
Super funny la he.
Haoyi and Jing kept playing kung fu with each other, but unfortunately stupid Jing didnt want to let me take video of his stupid kungfu excercise which drove me laughing like mad. Haha
Did some Fly.
Then went out for throws.
Discus was sucky today. Real sucky. Needa get my dear poor finger’s skin thicker so it wont hurt so much when i whack the discus. Rotation was kinda wierd today, though haoyi said there were some good ones. So. ah well.
Oh, and Jing kept calling me a monster. lol.
Cos my bench is 70kg and i can do both discus and shot. Haha
And my clean’s better than his! ^_^
yay…
Then after throws, went back into gym for sit ups.
100 sit ups.
I nearly died, again.
Stomach still aching like crap from last friday’s sit ups, and today had to do 100 again.
I think i cant sit straight tmr. Lol.
SO PAINFUL…
Ahh….
And i tihnk my muscles are like swelling cos there’s a rather unusual bulge at my stomach area, and upon minor flexing, is hard. Hehe. iF not for the layer of fats, i assure you there are 4-6 pacs. HA.
And there’s a shape forming at my abdominal area already. lol.
Can see the muscles at the back pushing my stomach forward.
Dang. lol
Then after that, fartlek.
Did until i nearly wanted to cry.
I pushed myself real hard, becos my legs started to hurt real bad when i started the series of sprints.
My Thighs and my hamstring.
Really hurt.
When i completed the fartlek, i could hardly walk properly, and it hurt alot.
Really bad.
So.
I dont know how im gonna walk in school tmr.
God help me.
Haha.
Then had a nice short chat with jumana on the phone.
Miss talking to her seh.
Time to have a talk to her soon!
Have so much to tell her,
now. lol
Ah well..
My body’s crying out for rest,
my brain’s breaking down.
Goodnight, folks.
Im tired.
And have a minor headache.
Okay.
Random.
Nights. :)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The Truth
HI!
Something i copped very happily and guiltlessly from my best friend’s blog. ^_^
Something i copped very happily and guiltlessly from my best friend’s blog. ^_^
The Test Of Fruitfulness
“Then he told this parable: “A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. 7So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, ‘For three years now I’ve been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?’ ‘Sir,’ the man replied, ‘leave it alone for one more year, and I’ll dig around it and fertilize it. 9If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.’ ” (Luke13:6-9)
God desires for you to grow. Sure, you’ve received Christ. You’re asking me,’I've already received Christ, I’m going to heaven, why should I grow?’ Yes, you’ve received Christ, but receiving Christ does not mean you’re going to heaven. Receiving Christ does not mean receiving salvation. Receiving Christ is about receiving a purpose. It’s when your life takes on new meaning. The seed is planted in you the moment you acept and receive Christ, but the seed cannot grow until you make the effort to set the conditions right.
God doesn’t want you to just receive the seed and leave it there. No, it’ll die if it does not exist in the appropriate conditions. And that’s what hurts God most, when your seed dies. God desires for you to receive the seed in your heart and then set th conditions in your heart right, so that only He can make it grow. God desires for that seed in you to grow into a mature plant and eventually bear fruit. You have a purpose, God has appointed you to bear fruit, fruit that will last (John15:16)
Friends, God has a purpose for your life. Not just to receive the seed He gracefully gave to you, but to boldly stand out from the crowd and fearlessly set live your life according to His ways, and to ultimately grow that seed. God desires for you to live a life that speaks volumes of Him and for Him.
Friends the first step to becoming just like Jesus is to get your life right before God. The first step to growing that seed is to set the soil. Only then can the watering and the caring work. Only then can the seed start its growth. God doesn’t desire for you to be perfect, He knows you can never be, but God desires that you become conscious of your identity, to know what you should and should not do, to be aware of your purpose and to make conscious efforts to work towards that purpose. God desires for you to live your life worthy of His. When He gave His life for yours, He desired for you to do the same.
“Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God.” (Philippians1:27-28)
And a song i just feel like sharing
Look at me, you may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Everyday, it’s as if I play a part
Now I see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
I am now, in a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow, I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don’t know
Must I pretend that I’m
Someone else, for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There’s a heart that must be free, to fly
That burns, with a need to know
The reason why, why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide
I won’t pretend that I’m
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside…
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
Have a lovely day, all.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Renewal
ladriell Jesus I belong to you.Lead me as you will. just sent you a nudge.
ladriell Jesus I belong to you.Lead me as you will. says:
my left arm hurts!
HAHA!
JOY TO MY WORLD!
Told ya i’de kick him. And i really did.
YAY!
I feel so justified after his nonsense almost every night. MUAHAHHAHA.
But it was quite a pleasant surprise to see him at service today.
Though its NOT COUNTED AS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT. Stupid Adriel.
YOU OWE ME 7 GIFTS NOW.
HA. I KNOW YOU’RE READING THIS!
Anyway. Today’s service was AWESOME.
The best so far, ever since the multiplication.
We have been growing at an amazing rate ever since the multiplication begun.
I’ve seen so so so many new faces and i hardly know anybody anymore! lol
which is a pretty good sign. :)
Praise be to God.
Sunday service is opening up the entire 3rd floor, which is AWESOME!
Cos I TOLD YOU,
RED ROOMS ARENT ENOUGH FOR IGNYTE!!! HAHAHAHA
Moses brought his friends, and they came back this week!
Awesomes, and believing for them to stay.
Got to know some new friends today, by chance, by fate, by suanning. 
Gavin’s sis, her friend, and her friend’s friend.
Haha. They were pretty cute.
And me and Tessa kept suanning each other.
I have a feeling we’re gonna become really good/interesting friends. Haha.
Oh.
Today i realised that, im starting to rise up even more as an Sp.
And i really find myself really wanting to serve, to do the little things that ppl do not see.
The little things that can make God’s house a better place for all.
to serve with the humble things in church, rather than the big things that bring me glory.
nah.
I really find myself taking more innitiative to help Bro Andy, to help clean up, to help make the place brighter, things are just changing. Haha. And its really good, i think.
Perhaps its cos im not serving as much in wm, and my heart still desires to serve.
And bro Andy has been trying to teach me that serving God is not always the glorious things that count, but the little things too. And so, i’ve been faithfully serving God in that area, and i want to continue to do so.
And there’s a new min called movers for christ, which im contemplating to join.
The duty is to go to cuhrch early every sunday to move the classroom blockages away. And thats really a way to serve! instead of sleeping the early sunday morn away, why not use it effectively to serve God? Its humble, but its the heart behind the service that counts. I honestly dont mind. Haha.
Cell today was rather interesting. Bro Andy liked the house i built. which i thought wasnt THAT nice. lol.
But Service, was just awesome.
I had a feeling, that God was going to be present today. And i desperately prayed for his presence because i recognised, that w/o it, service is simply meaningless. And for the past few weeks, we havent really been pressing in hard enough. And it is the presnece of God that will draw the many ppl to church, and to him. And thats what we really want to see. The best way to root the new believers in IGNYTE, is also by the power of God’s presence.
I really sensed that God was going to be there at service and give me a new encounter. I walked into service ready to receive, and expecting to receive. Something which i sorely lacked for the past few weeks. N today, God didnt disappoint me.
Praise could have been alot stronger, but worship was amazing. God was really there, and the ppl were really hungry. Or at least, starting to be hungry. And that was good. Something was stirring in Ignyte.
P, Margaret spoke today, and i felt it was a great and timely message. It title- WAKE UP!.
Wake up to what the Devil was doing, wake up to what God was doing, and wake up to what I am doing.
And the message really woke me up.
I was at first a little hesitant to answer to altar call for a new vision and a new heart for my generation, becuase im an sp and its kinda wierd. But i felt so strongly in my heart that i couldnt afford to be proud. Not there, not then. I knew i needed a new vision. I knew i needed God to renew my heart, becuase i had lost it. I had let go of it. Things of God started not to affect me anymore. I knew i needed God once again.
As i walk out into the altars, tears streamed down my face as the Lord came close to me. The Lord started renewing me, but yet my ears were closed. I needed someone, to pray for me. heh.
Thank God, sis Varina came by and she prayed over me. A prayer which really impacted me, though right now i cant remember much.
But today, i felt the Lord’s conviction on diff areas of my life. My lack of Faith to believe, my lack of desire to see things come to pass, my need to start seeing and acting upon the work of God, my need to stop what the devil is doing.
One phrase that really struck me was
“If satan’s worshippers can get tgt and pray for our destruction, What More MUST we get tgt to pray for Their destruction!”
Seriously!
Why should we be hesitant and let the devil off lightly?
We need to come against him with a greater force.
And we definately need to believe.
Believe in God.
Believe in the things of God.
Believe in the promises of God.
Because God’s promises are all Yes, and AMEN.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
lalalalala.
Hello everyone!
Today, i was late for school. Could’ve been on time if i had listen to the small voice at the back of my head that said “DONT OFF YOU’RE ALARM CLOCK” BUt i listened to the wrong voice that said “Its okay. Daddy will wake you up anyway.” And i Offed it. OFFED IT. Walao. I usually snooze it only. Whats the matter with me? lol. Anyway. We all woke up late. at like 6.55am. And glory glory i made it to school at 7.40am. Good job. Thakns to the sickening morning jams. lol.
MAN. it was SO HUMILIATING, EMBARASSING etc! Come on… A student councillor.. LATE… for school.. Omg… I just wanted a bag over my head. Heh. But oh well. I gave the reason of the traffic jam, which was true, because everywhere was like jammed up. I could’ve been on time if not for the jams everywhere. Argh.
Anyway. While i was waiting desperately to get out of that place, i turned my head and saw a familier face with a twinkle in his eye- Bertram. HA! I nearly wanted to laugh out loud. HAHA! BERTRAM WAS LATE FOR SCHOOL. HAHA. But its still worse for me. heh. >.< ah well.
I nearly kenna-ed detention. But i managed to get out of it, cos Ms Shamsia asked me to write parents letter. so i dont think it was like, reasonable since its quite a valid reason. Traffic. Cant control that, no?
So anyway. School was a LONG day today… Kinda boring, yet fun? lol.
Anyway. after school went for a quick lunch with Ryan and Binkai at Tzone. Then went home. Slack pretty much today cos i was watching Ying Ye 3+1 on my Psp. HA. Then i got to work at about 7? oops. lol What a waste of time.. But oh well.
Anyway. Im really glad that i’ve got a PSP, and that i’ve finally found a way to download and put videos inside my psp. Hallelujah. Saves me the anxiety to find out whats going on plus the wastage of time on watching it. I can now use my time wisely, by watching it on my long travelling vehicals. haha.
Nothing much to talk about. Actually, something God spoke to me during my tawg. BUt i’ll save it for tmr or something.
Oh. STupid Adriel sent me some really hard chinese email to read. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. It was SO ON PURPOS because he sent it to ONLY ME!!! WALAO…. And its not usual chinese can? Its some olden day chinese kind of tihng.. walao.. Irritating la! Purposely. GRRRR……. Im so gonna kick him the next time i meet him. Ass. Bleah. >.<
And oh! My parents bought some cross trainer machine to help the whole family lose weight apparantly. lol. And it arrived today. I tried it out and worked out for one minute and gave up cos my body’s just not accostumed to the way it works. lol. seriously. To top that up, my leg muscles havent entirely recovered due to monday’s training + Wednesday’s rugby… And when i tried it out just now, when my dad turned the intensity up to 9, and i burned 100 calories, i gave up and i couldt walk properly. I felt like my legs were disjointed from my body. Man. Maybe thats how models learn to walk. lol. I think we’re better off with a treadmeal. lol. Its more akin to running.
Okay. brain’s slowing down already… Getting tired.. Tmr’s there’s training. yay. Mr Jing’s going! ^_^ YAY!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Fun! :D
OMIGOSH!
I’ve fallen in love with a new sport.
its called CONTACT RUGBY!!!
Anyway. Today was DAMN FUN!!!
Seriously. Omgoodness!!! :PD
Hahah.
I was quite sad at first when it started raining, and i kept praying for the rain to stop.
But it didnt.
I felt sad.
But Thank God, (sorry God for the lack of Faith), we got to play touch rugby!
In fact, the rain stopped just at our PE, and the classroom system simply refused to work when Mr Ng tried to get us to watch a movie in the classroom instead of PE, but thankfully it didnt work! So, WE GOT TO PLAY PE!!!
The guys were actually the ones who protested the most.
And guess what?
They didnt play contact rugby.
Why?
COS THE FIELD WAS MUDDY…
Walao…
lol.
Seriously la!
So, only 10 girls plus 3 guys played contact rugby.
tsk tsk tsk… so much for being guys… sigh…
Anyway.
CONTACT RUGBY WAS SUPER FUN LA!!!
I havent had THAT MUCH Wild Fun for SO LONG!
And i’ve never seen my class gals, or that group rather, so into the game the game turned super rough. Seriously, Everyone had no second thought before pouncing on someone, with or without the ball. HAHA! It was seriously SUPER FUN! The field was SUPER WET and SUPER MUDDY! but the muddiness brought a whole new element to the whole game. Omgosh. Seriously, it was SUPER FUN!
And after the game was over, crap. For the first time EVER, in my life, I WAS TAO-POKED! OH MAN. Its always ME taopok someone else, not the other way around!!! But oh no… I WAS TAO=POKED TODAY!!! Omygoodness… i cant come to terms with it man… >:L Grrr… And it took 8 girls to bring me down. HAHA. If not for Jumana, NO ONE would have brought me down. lol. It was like right after the game, someone went “GIRLS! TIME TO TACKLE HANNAH!!!!!” And then the whole group of them came charging at me! IT was super scary la! walao. like. 8 girls come running after you. lol.
I started running away first, and then thought it was better to stay on one spot cos that’ll give me less chances to be off balanced. HA. At first i wouldnt budge no matter how they tried to push me. haha. Until stupid Jumana came. Then i fell. Real bad. ON TOP OF HER! HAHAHAHA. And then that was the bad part. T-T
Jumana rolled me over and jumped on top of me, and before i could react, that weight on top of me cos even heavier, know why? COS ALL THE OTHER GIRLS WERE JUMPING ON TOP OF ME! MAN! And i could do NOTHING but SCREAM the heck out of myself. SERIOUSLY! omygoodness… It was such a wierd strange feeling i never had. But i was laughing the crap out of myself cos it seriously was so damn fun and funny. And i couldnt believe i actually got taopoked. And the girls took the liberty of smearing my already dirty shirt with more mud. lol. it was DAMN FUN LA!!!
Then i went around tackling ppl who were clean. HAHAH. Super fun.
And our dear guys just stood behind the gate and watched. lol. LOL. Watch us girls get down and dirty. MAN! Im seriously super proud of my class girls la! Awesome gals man. Seriously. Really proud of their enthusiasm and gameness for this crazily insanely dirty rough game. haha. But then again, Contact Rugby is a Gentlemen and Ladies game. ^_^ HA.
After that, we went cam whoring. haha. Super fun. And then Mr Chan came and scolded us. Heh. Then we went to wash up, and that was MEGA BONDING TIME! For us girls. HAHA! Seriously. IT WAS SUPER BONDINGLY FUN LA!
The rushing into the toilet, owning the whole toilet, screaming as the door opens cos there’re like half naked ppl walking around.. lol. Ppl not caring about modesty in the toilet. Seriously. It was interesting. lol. Thank God for a great enclosed CCA black toilet with showers. haha. Most of us got to take a shower, but it sucked real bad we didnt bring extra undergarments, towels and soap. We felt superbly disgusting, but it was worth it. haha.
All my clothes ended up being damp after awhile and i started getting cold. hehe. So Robert Kindly lent me his pullover and i absolutely accepted it gratefully. Hehe. Might have stunk it up with the damp water in my clothes and my deoderant. hehe.
Ah well. Lesson learnt is, BRING EXTRA CLOTHES. EVERYTHING. and SOAP and TOWEL. and we are gonna have a heck lot of fun again next week. YEA! This is even more fun than our traditional captain’s ball man!
After school, i rushed to CCA photo-taking that Mrs Ho so very kindly changed it to 2.20 instead of 3.45 just for me, just so that i could make it for both. N before that, i received a great piece of news- KELLY FROM ACJC’S ALSO GOING ASEAN!!!
Phototaking was pretty good i think. haha.
Then rushed down to CCAB for the briefing. It was pretty cool.
Lots of time was taken up for formal suit measurement, cos its being tailor-made, and for trying out sizes of vests, shorts, suits and t-shirts. Haha. ANd filling in of particulars. Apparantly, we’re gonna be getting a whole lot of cool stuff:
- 4 round neck T-shirts
- 1 entire track suit
- 2 vests
- 2 running shorts
- 1 polo tee
- 1 Pair of shorts
- 1 Formal attire (shirt+pants/skirt)
- 1 Bag
WOOTS!
Then they gave us a few pieces of paper containing info on records, and top 3 timings/distances for the past few years, and looking at the distances clocked last year, I totally have a chance to win. Seriously. Im so wanting to get a top 3. it’d be AWESOME!!!
Yupp. Hotel and Airplane arent confirmed yet, sadly. But im most likely gonna be rooming with crazy kelly. Haha.
All Glory to God once again, ya?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
TMR! :D
Ah well…
I CANT WAIT FOR TMR!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!!
Not some gay touch rugby, but CONTACT RUGBY!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just pray it doesnt rain tmr cos i SO WANT TO PLAY CONTACT RUGBY!
Apparantly, the girls had so much fun last week, and i missed out cos i had competition. DANG.
BUt oh well.
I CANT WAIT TO PLAY TMR!!!
Im So tackling Jumana and Eunice, and Benita? aiya. No kick ah! HAHAHAHAHHA
Im so gonna tackle every single Girl man! WOOHOO!!!
I CANT WAIT!
Anyway.
Tmr’s also Track photo taking. And Mrs Ho kindly rearranged the timeslot just for me, so that i can make it for both that and the VERY IMPORTANT meeting i have after that.
Last photo with Track team..
Im really sad, cos though i didnt get to spend much time, i guess i’ve bonded with the team in a different, and special way. HAha. Esp the sec 1s. They’re such darlings, really.
AND.
Tmr’s ASEAN BRIEFING!!!
Well, I have no idea who’s going man. Seriously. lol. Im CLUELESS… Hehe.
Except that Yun Fang… I cant remember if she’s the team cap of VJ. But i’ll find out soon enough.
Oh well. TIME TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS! lol.
Im seriously friendless there this time…
Oh God. Grant me great friends at Asean.
WOOTS! CANT WAIT!
Oh.
And….
YING YE 3+1 IS SUPER COOL!!!
Its not easy for me to be a fan of something or someone.
But seriously…
MING DAO AND QIAOEN ARE SUPER NICE TGT!!!
^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
WOOHOO!!!
Their roles in this show are seriously KICK ASS man!
haha. Ah well.
Anyway.
Today was just a really really LONG day at school..
Esp with my poor still sick body plus entire body aching from training yesterday.
Yesterday marked day 1 of Gym training.
I nearly died.
Thank God my power’s still in my body.
Kind of thought i lost before competition cos i was like so weak when i did bench before comp.
BUt hey!
I managed a good 2 reps of 70kg bench.
WOOHOO!
Nice Max man….
And did clean until my hands nearly died… Gah….
Then sprinted 3 rounds the track.
More like fart leg…
But oh well..
My entire body’s just really aching badly. Hehe.
But its good stuff.
Recently, have been getting to know my new ss/geog group. And MAN! They’re AWESOME! Seriously, SUPER FUN LA MY GROUP!
Me, Jung Fang, Tong Jit, Marcus Koh and Kester. haha
SUPER FUN LA!
Downfall is, we cant concentrate in class cos we keep talking. Hehe.
And they’re just really cute.
We should go lunch sometime. Haha.
AND.
School’s really….ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Man. I wish prelims werent so near.
But hey!
I’ve been a little more motivated in studying. Haha.
And my teachers constantly ask me about asean cos they’re really concerned.
AND.
I’ve been getting closer to the class, i feel.
I feel i’ve opened myself up alot more than before, and thats good.
Awesome stuff girl, awesome stuff.
AND!
I have a whole long list of ppl i need to catch up with, and a list of ppl waiting for me to make time for them. Hehe.
Sis Raine, Bro Andy, Jumana, Ann, Jean, Grace, Jeremy Law, Pris Chin, AND SO MANY MORE! HA
Just cant think of them now.
Sigh…
AND!
I’ve decided to go Vj.
Wait, did i already tell you that?
cant remember.
Anyway.
Im going VJ.
And it SUCKS to know that EVERYONE ELSE is going to ACJC.
INCLUDING ALASTAIR TAN…
Break my heart man.
Break my heart.
And we could be like school mates since primary school…
Im really sad.
I really am…
Ah well.
Life goes on.
gotta looks forward.
*looks forward*
crap.
Prelims.
BUT HEY!
ASEAN!
And haoyi says that no one studies during asean.
I guess i have to prove him wrong somehow…
I’de love to play during asean, though. hehe.
Perhaps i could have my exams… earlier?
hehe.
Ah well.
SOON! lol.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Focus!
Hi all.
Sorry for not updating.
Hehe.
Anyway.
Its been really stressful the past week. Actually, Thursday, esp. BUt Thanks Jumana and Eunice for being there for me. Relaly appreciate you girls.
Yupp. Anyway.
perhaps going to ASEAN wasnt that fantastic a deal, because it has come now, with a whole lot of stress and pressure that, i didnt relaly think about. But, i really still want to go, and i think that i want to brave through this season. God help me.
In a way, im losing out big time because i will still be training, twice, a week. And on top of that, i need to study. like, get down to my work and all. And on top of that, i have started a prayer meeting and need to handle that as well. I cant really complain because I really want/need to do all that for different reasons.
Im relaly afraid of the next few weeks actually.
Actually, im frightened out of my skin.
Its gonna be like the most important next few weeks im gonna have to face for now.
Training, Studies, God, Family.
Im really scared. I really am….
Im afraid i wont be able to handle it. Im afraid of burning out again. Im afraid of being too tired and unable to concentrate, im afraid of being unfocused. I feel uncertain of the near future, and im just scared. I really am.
But Im just gonna trust in God, and pray that God will take me through safely and sanely, because its gonna be a miracle if i make it out alive, and doing well. GOD. Help me, please.
And i need the support of my friends.
Father,
I know you hear me, and i know you listen. God, the next few weeks are gonna be tough and stressing. And God, i might even break down a few times. But God, i pray that you will strengthen me, because its in my weaknesses that i can depend on you for strength. And father, i pray that you will strengthen me, and keep me strong. Lord, help me through this period, hold my hand. Let me trust in you whole heartedly, for i know that your ways are perfect. Father, i place my dreams and my all in your hands. In you i trust. Take me through the storm. Rather, above it. I love you Lord, its gonna be an interesting ride.
In Jesus name, Amen.
Im tired.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Heart full of gratitude
This marks the end of my Nationals 2008, in Fairfield methodist, in B Div.
My Achievements this season have been more than expected, and very very blessed.
Very unexpected, and very thankful, and EXTREMELY ELATED!
1: 1st in Shot Putt - 10.94m
2: 2nd in Discus - 28.–m
3: I MADE IT TO ASEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4: VJC has officially accepted me. Or rather, i have officially accepted them.
Lets start with shot putt.
Shot putt.
Getting a first is pretty much a given. I was aiming pretty much for distance. And i so very very VERY badly wanted to hit 11m, and i missed by a FREAKING 6CM!!!!!!!!!! OMG… Do i want to kill myself or do i want to kill myself.. ugh… I was nearly beaten to ASEAN by VJC girl who threw 10.36m, which my coach said wasnt even near. But it was kinda near cos i didnt expect any A div girl to hit above 10m. heh. Sorry.
My first 3 throws were 10.2m thereabouts, due to ups and downs in psyco-ness due to the terribly LONG waiting time.. Due to the MANY ppl throwing. lol. It started hitting 10.7 and above the moment we started top 8 finals. Which was.. Yea man.. Hahaha.
Not bad.. improved by 50cm in… 2 months or less.. or was it one.. hmm… lol.
No la. Was there all along. Just haoyi finally got it out of me.
Good coach.
Discus.
I officially name myself ‘The Black Horse’.
Rather, its the name my dear coach gave to me.
He says im a black horse because no one expects me to do well for discus, esp after how i screwed SAAA Nats Junior so badly by not qualifying for top 8. All Glory to God for my redemption of reputation. Haha. I think its pretty good, considering i started discus only.. hmm… 2 months ago? Hahaha. Thank God. Seriously. I didnt expect it at all. I was shocked myself! lol! My first throw was a stand throw, which was 28m, which was freaking cool, and scary, cos i didnt expect it at all. Haha.
I spent the next 5 throws ROTATING. which i knew was HOPELESS… I stepped out like… 4 out of the 5 throws i had left. heh. The only one that i didnt step out clocked a dist of 26m.. And The 2nd last one i did, was a good 30m or more, but OUT OF RANGE. I felt like killing myself. Seriously. I deserve a knock in the head. BIG TIME. heh. but not bad. stand throw 28m.. wow… lol. If i master the rotation, can i hit 38m?
ASEAN.
Totally didnt expect it.
I thought i might get it cos im officially the top shot putt thrower in S’pore junior, cos A div didnt beat me. But apparantly the list was out and until today, i hadnt been informed. So i was kind of worried.
I was actually still moping a little about my 2nd last throw, when my junior turned to me, smiled and said
“Oh guess what Hannah, You made it to ASEAN.”
I was actually dazing away for a moment, when the truth hit with a BANG like 3 secs later. Seriously. and the Bang, was a BIG BIG BIG BANG.
I started SCREAMING and SCREAMING and SCREAMING for like God knows how long.
If you need an illustration, just imagine America’s next top model dramatic screams when they win or when they get into the finals or something, except, its hannah.
Seriously. Thats how i was. Right infront of everyone, right infront of the entrace to the stadium. I screamed non stop. Shrieked, if not for my lower range voice. Couldnt speak for 5 mins. Cried in happiness. Trembeled upon receiving the letter from Mrs Ho. I screamed. Jumped hysterically into the air. Ppl thought i was mad. But i didnt care. I just screamed. And praised the Lord.
Even Haoyi was scared.
Wished someone had taken a video of my reaction.
I really tried to control myself but i couldnt!!!
I was Just so taken by surprise that was the only was i could react!!!!
I cant believe it.
OMG!
ASEAN!!!!
ASEAN JUNIOR CHAMPIONSHIPS!!!
I made it..
Hannah, you’re not dreaming….
I MADE IT
OMG I MADE IT!
I MADE IT!
I MADE IT!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THE MOST PRESTIGIOUS MEET ANY ATHELETE WOULD WANNA BE PART OF!!!
AND I GET TO GO IN SEC 4!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!
THANK YOU JESUS!!!!
MAN!
IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!
My hard work has paid off.
And i have been blessed.
Very blessed.
Omg.. ASEAN!. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^!!!!!
VJC.
Today, i signed the form to accept VJC as my DSA choice. Will… talk about that soon ya?
Oh. HOD of PE of VJC gave me a REALLY COOL ADIDAS PEN cos i liked it! or rather, i commented that it was cute! Which it really really was cos its seriously adidas, black, and has a shoe in liquid, you know the liquid thing you use to keep stuff in a glass or transparent thingy? YEA. THAT KIND. its seriously DANG COOL CAN! lol. I just commented its really cute, and he gave it to me. lol! Coolness.. they really know how to bribe.
BUT ANYWAY.
I just really really really really really really really wanna thank 3 important grps of ppl in my life for this achievement, because w/o them, i woulnt be where i am today.
1: GOD.
2: MY PARENTS
3: MY COACH
If not for God, i wouldnt be where i was. I wouldnt have been in Fairfield, i wouldnt have been in Track, i Wouldnt have achieved so much! If not for God, i wouldnt have gotten Haoyi as my great coach, i wouldnt have done so well, i wouldnt have gone into asean, i wouldnt have as big a reputation as i have now. And really. Its all because God has favoured me, and blessed me with much. But much is expected of me as well. To Honour God, and honour my parents.
If not for my parents, i wouldnt have done so well, i wouldnt have my coach. If not for their constant support, i wouldnt be who i am, or what i am now.
If not for my coach, i’de still be nothing, a nobody in the Track arena. If not for my coach, i would have been a NOBODY. Maybe top 8, but definately not as good as i am now. And i’ve really got to Thank my coach. Because he was the one who groomed me into the great athlete i’ve become.
But of course, God was the one who ensured that all these happened. Who ensuere Haoyi groomed me well. God turned me from a nobody, into a somebody. And he blessed me with my Discus today, esp since i was a nobody in that before too. And God blessed me even more… With… ASEAN.
Omg. We’re going to VIETNAM!!!
And its right smack in the middle of prelims… great….
God, help me work this out, please..
Thank you God, Thank you Coach and Thank you Mum n Dad.
You are greatly, so greatly appreciated in my heart.
Thank you, for making me who i am today.
My words above, still cant speak my gratitude for you 4 great ppl.
And nothing can describe the happiness, excitement and dunno what… The CRAZY feelings running aruopnd in my body and mind cos of ASEAN.
OMG!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
